8.02.2007

ahh i hate bay area traffic

it's awful. wretched even. miserable in fact. it's just plain terrible. i'm sick of driving in traffic to get to stockton. but i'm enjoying making pictures out there. and i'm really enjoying spending time with robert and sue. a little less thrilled on robert though when i showed up this morning and sue told me he hit her a few hours after i left last night. he was already pretty drunk when i left at 10pm and was well on his way to finishing the rest of the bottle of rum.

spent the morning doing laundry in town with sue. talked a lot with her and joseph, her little grandson. i feel like sue really enjoys my company mainly because i'm not much of a talker. i love to listen. today she told me that she is thinking of leaving him. she hadn't told anyone that. much less said it aloud. their relationship and feelings toward each other have changed dramatically since i met them. i'm not sure if they are just that much more comfortable or if the close quarters and robert's drinking is finally taking it's toll. i'm worried about sue. and i'm worried about robert and what his life would turn into if sue left.

there's no women down there in that marina for her to talk to. i think she is in desperate need of some female companionship. i'm happy to be there for her now. but at the same time i don't want robert to feel like i'm taking sides with all of their arguing. i'm doing my best to be impartial but it's hard when you show up and hear about a domestic dispute. i've never been in this kind of situation and don't know really what do to. i'm not sure of my place in the matter. i'm staying out of it. i'm in the process of editing pictures from today. here's some from last night.

i'm on the search for metaphors. and some one-liners to keep me on track. i feel like i'm flailing.











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