maybe i am, maybe i'm not.

i though about cynicism today. and desire. and self-loathing.

i can't help but admit that a lot of what i now feel and know about these things is due in large part to living with dave and brian. we all have our moments of completely obnoxious behavior, but those boys are my family and i know i need to do them proud in life by embracing my inner bastard every once in a while and enjoy the brighter side of pessimism.

and that's just fine. everyone needs a dose of that in their lives. i'm still the same, only now i'm not so naive.